Hey Everyone! HAPPY NEW YEAR!! I know we are seven days into the New Year, but it’s still new! HA! So it seems like 2014 went by in a flash! We took our kids out of public school and started Homeschooling! Our sweet baby girl turned 1!! My husband was living out his dream and then that door shut right in his face (More about that in a later post titled “Dreams and Closed Doors”), We traveled to Florida to visit my family, My brother announced that him and his wife were expecting their first baby, My husband started working on his own CD.. It was an all around great year, with many ups and a few downs. God has been beyond faithful and we couldn’t be more thankful!
In the midst of it all, I think I really started to lose myself. All I began to think was, so God put all these desires in my heart just for me to be a stay-at-home mom who Homeschools!? And that’s when self-pity began to sink in. I was always feeling down! I was down about not having many friends, I was down about not being in school pursuing what I wanted… I was actually being pretty selfish in the way I was thinking. Yes I was doing an amazing thing to build my kids up and I didn’t regret that, but I didn’t see the true value in it. I just saw the sacrificing it was taking. And to top it all off, my Kindergartener and Third Grader didn’t appreciate the sacrifice I was making (what kids actually do in the beginning?) for them and just kept asking when I could sign them back up for public school. What a great booster!? HA. It often crossed my mind that the best thing to do was place them back in school.
WHAT A LIE TO BELIEVE! I look at my kids and all that they are learning here at home with me and Rene and think how could I ever want to send them back? It’s been the greatest time with my kids! I have even learned so much more about them! So before the year was over, I truly turned around and began to seek God on what exactly he was doing in my life and what he was calling me to do. Come to find out, I’m right where he wants me to be. I’m raising up the next generation! I’m filling them up with the word of God and inputting tons of knowledge so that they can help be a better change in this world.
I of all people know how hard it is to lose yourself in the craziness of being married and raising kids at a young age. Trying to find yourself again can be tough, but if you seek The One who Created you, finding out who you truly are in Him will be a lot easier than trying to do it on your own.
I’m all about finding scripture that can help with where I am in a season of life, so this is my scripture for you.
“The Steps of a [good] man are directed and established by the Lord when he delights in his ways [and He busies Himself with his every step]. Though he falls, he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Lord grasps his hand in support and upholds him. -Psalm 37:23-24(AMP)
This scripture has helped me so much knowing that God has directed my steps and He is the one that supports me. I’m so glad I know that I am right where God has directed me to be. If you are going through something close to what I have been going through, I would love to pray for you. Send me a comment or an email with details or no details and I will surely lift you up to our mighty God.