Love

GOODBYE 2014, HELLO 2015!!

Hey Everyone! HAPPY NEW YEAR!! I know we are seven days into the New Year, but it’s still new! HA! So it seems like 2014 went by in a flash!  We took our kids out of public school and started Homeschooling! Our sweet baby girl turned 1!! My husband was living out his dream and then that door shut right in his face (More about that in a later post titled “Dreams and Closed Doors”), We traveled to Florida to visit my family, My brother announced that him and his wife were expecting their first baby, My husband started working on his own CD.. It was an all around great year, with many ups and  a few downs. God has been beyond faithful and we couldn’t be more thankful!

In the midst of it all, I think I really started to lose myself. All I began to think was, so God put all these desires in my heart just for me to be a stay-at-home mom who Homeschools!? And that’s when self-pity began to sink in. I was always feeling down! I was down about not having many friends, I was down about not being in school pursuing what I wanted… I was actually being pretty selfish in the way I was thinking. Yes I was doing an amazing thing to build my kids up and I didn’t regret that, but I didn’t see the true value in it. I just saw the sacrificing it was taking. And to top it all off, my Kindergartener and Third Grader didn’t appreciate the sacrifice I was making (what kids actually do in the beginning?) for them and just kept asking when I could sign them back up for public school. What a great booster!? HA.  It often crossed my mind that the best thing to do was place them back in school.

WHAT A LIE TO BELIEVE! I look at my kids and all that they are learning here at home with me and Rene and think how could I ever want to send them back? It’s been the greatest time with my kids! I have even learned so much more about them! So before the year was over, I truly turned around and began to seek God on what exactly he was doing in my life and what  he was calling me to do. Come to find out, I’m right where he wants me to be. I’m raising up the next generation! I’m filling them up with the word of God and inputting tons of knowledge so that they can help be a better change in this world.

I of all people know how hard it is to lose yourself in the craziness of being married and raising kids at a young age. Trying to find yourself again can be tough, but if you seek The One who Created you, finding out who you truly are in Him will be a lot easier than trying to do it on your own.

I’m all about finding scripture that can help with where I am in a season of life, so this is my scripture for you.

“The Steps of a [good] man are directed and established by the Lord when he delights in his ways [and He busies Himself with his every step]. Though he falls, he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Lord grasps his hand in support and upholds him. -Psalm 37:23-24(AMP)

This scripture has helped me so much knowing that God has directed my steps and  He is the one that supports me. I’m so glad I know that I am right where God has directed me to be. If you are going through something close to what I have been going through, I would love to pray for you. Send me a comment or an email with details or no details and I will surely lift you up to our mighty God.

Blessings,

Lexi O

Sick and summer don’t mix!

I’m having a blah mommy day! Both boys have been sick for the last 5 or 6 days, they’ve somehow caught an ugly little virus that keeps wanting to stick around! And my wonderful hubby came down with pinkeye, in not only one but both eyes! 👎 I so can not wait for everyone to be better! Luckily little miss Ellie and I have yet to get anything too serious! Thank You Jesus!!! Thankfully I’m a praying mommy and I have no time for the enemy to attack my family. So sickness has to bow down in the name of Jesus! If you’re a mom or wife, be sure to pray constantly over your family! Your prayers are powerful! Pray without ceasing. I tend to pray while I’m cleaning, doing dishes, taking a shower! Just like anything, it takes time to form a habit, but I promise it’ll be the best habit you start! Start Speaking Life, Health, Healing and Joy over your family. Check out Isaiah 55:11 NIV, “so is my word that goes out from my mouth: it will not return to me empty,but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.” You blessings will not return void! I hope that can be an encouragement for you and your family. Yes Blah mommy days or even weeks aren’t fun, but any “blah” day is better in the hands of Jesus then a day without him.

P.S. I have to share this adorable picture of my sweet little ones while they ran outside yesterday to get a breath of fresh air.

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Marriage.. The Sweetest Gift

Tonight I’m sitting here holding my sweet sleeping 5 month old daughter, my legs entwined with my husband as our boys are tucked in bed. Life is great! I couldn’t ask for a better family. My life has become so much sweeter since getting married and having kids. I can’t even begin to imagine what my life would be like without them. I know I know… Mushy love stuff. But it truly is a gift from God. IF you are single, wait for the man/woman that God has for you. There’s nothing better. Sure we have our up and down moments, but who doesn’t? We make each other better, we balance each other. If you are married, cherish your spouse. There’s no one else in the world that will have your back more than he/she will. There’s no one else who will push you to become better. There’s no one else who will Love you the way that a spouse is supposed to love. I think today’s generation has taken for granted what Marriage means. I recently read that 1 in 2 marriages will end in divorce. That literally makes the marriage rate 50/50. How heartbreaking is that?! How is that you commit yourselves to each other, recite vows and yet take it so lightly? Marriage is such a sacred convenient. It’s supposed to be exciting, full of love, hard. It’s not meant to be given up on so easily. Marriage is a complete give and take relationship. It’s NEVER meant to be 50/50, it should be 100/100. Sacrifices come from each side but you should do it all in L.O.V.E. ❤ To all my married friends, make God the center of your Marriage, He will guide you in exactly the way you need to go in order to benefit your relationship with your spouse. He will help you both grow together. There’s nothing better than praying and seeking God with the one you love. To all my single friends, seek God with all your heart, and he will lead you exactly where you need to be. 

Thanks for checking in. Just wanted to share a little bit of LOVE that was on my heart tonight. 

Blessings, 

       Lexi O. 

Rough Patch Season

So, have you ever been at a point in your life where you just don’t know where you are going or what’s in store for you?! I think most people come to that a couple times in life. I think I’m there right now. I’m stuck wondering what Gods plans for me are, and just trying to find the other part of me. The obvious part of me is that I’m a stay at home mom and wife to 2 amazing little boys and a great man! Yes I’m a little out numbered by testosterone but I’m loving everyday with these 3 special guys! I love all these things about my life, but often find myself wondering if what I am doing is enough or should I say Good enough…. I’ve had this dream since I was probably 7 years old of wanting to become a doctor. First thing people say to me when I tell them that is, wow that’s awesome but that’s a ton of school. Of course they are right, it’s about 15 years give or take of pure in the books school. Needless to say, I’ve been quite the procrastinator when it’s come to my school. I’ve actually been a big procrastinator on a lot of things, from important things to little miscellaneous things. No doubt that procrastination is an ugly habit. But this morning as I took my 5 year old to school, I heard a song that reminded me some great things that God has been trying to show me for awhile. God has a plan! Here are the lyrics to that song, maybe it will help people who are going through a little rough patch in trying to figure out what God has in store for them. 🙂

Maybe tomorrow I’ll start over
Maybe tomorrow I will finally change my ways
Said the same thing yesterday
Don’t know why I’m so afraid
To let You in, to let You win
To let You have all of me

I can’t live my whole life wasting
All the grace that I know You’ve given
‘Cause You made me for so much more than
Sitting on the sidelines

I don’t wanna look back and wonder
If good enough could have been better
Every day’s a day that’s borrowed
So why am I waiting for tomorrow?
Why am I waiting for tomorrow?

Maybe today I’ll start believing, yeah
That Your mercy really is as real as You say it is
It doesn’t matter who I used to be
It only matters that I’ve been set free
You rescued me, You’re changing me
Jesus, take everything, yeah

I can’t live my whole life wasting
All the grace that I know You’ve given
‘Cause You made me for so much more than
Sitting on the sidelines

I don’t wanna look back and wonder
If good enough could have been better
Every day’s a day that’s borrowed
So why am I waiting for tomorrow?

Oh, I’m making this my moment now
To grab the hand that’s reaching down
To save me, oh, You save me

And I’m making this my moment now
To grab the hand that’s reaching down
To save me, oh, You save me

I can’t live my whole life wasting
All the grace that I know You’ve given
‘Cause You made me for so much more than
Sitting on the sidelines

I don’t wanna look back and wonder
If good enough could have been better
Every day’s a day that’s borrowed
So why am I waiting for tomorrow?
Why am I waiting for tomorrow?

I’m gonna grab the hand that’s reaching down
And I’m not gonna wait until tomorrow
Oh, tomorrow

Some pretty awesome lyrics huh? I have to trust in God that his timing is better than mine! He put desires and passions in my heart for a reason and God is the only person that knows when it will be time for me to get to where I’m supposed to be. The season I’m in right now may not be where I want to be, but it’s where God wants me to be to teach me things that will help me later for when I arrive at the destination he wants me to get to! All I can do is take the small steps through the doors that God has opened for me!

With that being said I leave you with this verse to Remus everyone he does have great plans for each and everyone of us!

For I know the plans I have for you, ” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
-Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

 

-Lexi O.

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